A case of Blukh

Nothing can really describe my true feelings as well as a green emoticon that is sadly not availble on this blog. It's been a long friggin' day. With some ups, then downs, and then ups again. Only to be followed by downs. And the rainbow gold seems pathetic and pretentious; a product of a pathetically immature and idealistic mindset that really doesn't exist. But the starry night still shines when i look up. but perhaps it is this very ability to see the stars that causes all the pathetic angst in the first place.

the rainbow gold

Its funny how many changes a single day can bring. Amazing really. One can feel so many emotions in a mere span of 12 hours or so. I was irritable in the morning, feeling shitty, lethargic and bored.

As the day bloomed, my irritation wore off. I was frustrated, angry over one particular project that was changed continuously—really, it didn’t seem to end.

But the day was salvaged… I met some friends, like-minded individuals and revelled. This was followed by a drive in a fantastic car—not mine, yes, but the high it gave me was phenomenal.

On the long drive home I was refreshed and charged. I drove with energy, the music blaring- I didn’t care what anyone else might think. I was in my own world, glad to be myself, once again.

As someone once said, paradise is not bought with just mere money… although it does help! Besides, I am still after the rainbow gold.

Inspiration?

Why is it that some days are filled with energy, laughter and excitement, only to be followed with one that is full of monotony, boredom and a feeling that can perhaps just be described as lethargic as best? It is, perhaps, all up to us to create excitement… but despite all my belief that it is all in our hands, sometimes it becomes way too hard. But at the end of the day, would I replace those few inspiring days and the dull ones that come with it with days that are just mediocre? No – after all, the ability to see the stars can never be replaced. So maybe it’s something I should learn to deal with. But that’s an entirely different battle – settling!